Firsts

I had excellent results from my PET scan yesterday and I feel a renewed sense of life. Even though I am not even half way through the treatment I feel like I am beginning my recovery. I don't want to expect too much of myself, but it feels like the hard part is over. I am currently cancer free. A clean PET scan. Yahoo! That is the best possible scenario at this point in the treatment. It doesn't mean the treatment changes in any way, though. We continue on in order to ensure that it doesn't come back, and in doing so the cure rate is ninety percent. So I feel elated today. I hope I can make this feeling last through the rest of this intense treatment experience. Perhaps it will make it more bearable and go faster. I want to increase my activity and get in shape. I want to do creative projects around the house that I haven't gotten to. I want to begin projects to bring our lives to a more creative and flowing place. I want to get massage and go to qigong and study with Cyndi. I want to take classes on line. I want to enjoy the fall and the holidays. I want to take good care of myself and get through this with grace and ease. I want to come out the other side a changed person with a brand new lease on life. So to end and begin with a cliche: Today is the first day of the rest of my life!